Lyrical Logic

She seems cold, rude, and bitchy. 
Sure, she wasn’t the perfect mom,
She could have handled many things better. 
But given the opportunity,
She was always there for the big moments. 

She puts her family above all else, 
Though sometimes you may not see it.
She takes no shit, 
And yes, 
She has high standards, 
But only because she cares. 

The walls she puts up aren’t meant to do harm. 
They are meant to prevent it from happening. 
We don’t know what caused hers to go up, 
But I’m sure it wasn’t pretty. 
After all, 
Her mother-in-law tried to talk Richard into leaving her at the alter. 

Sometimes I wonder,
I wonder if I don’t feel like her. 
I mean, I don’t because I financially struggle, 
But the feeling of needing it all to be perfect 
To keep it from falling apart. 

My perfection is the only thing to protect all. 
Without my perfection 
People will realize I’m not needed at all. 

So
While many may hate Emily Gilmore,
I empathize with her. 
Yet I am terrified to be the kind of mother that Lorelei though she was. 
Because while I understand her, 
I know she could have been so much better. 
I want to be better. 
Better than Emily Gilmore.