Lyrical Logic

I would like to take a moment to pause the regularly scheduled poetry publication to reflect on something that I’ve been thinking about for a while now. While this place is mostly a place for me to publish my poetry, I will occasionally add in more of a blog post from time to time. Today, it’s because I have been dealing with a health issue and haven’t had the time or energy to work on my poetry. And, instead of pausing my publication, I thought I would just post something different.

I ask the question “why not me,” when I’m struggling with the process. Mostly, it’s the process of getting back on my feet after the divorce and seeing my ex-husband moving on with his life. Or when I am at work and I see these people who have money they could literally burn and not miss and I’m struggling to pay rent. But, my therapist has brought up some good points when I’ve talked with her about this.

Why do I look at it as “I can’t have that?” Why can’t I reach those goals as well? I mean, I doubt I’ll ever be able to burn money and not miss it, but why can’t I be financially stable? Why can’t I be happy? Why can’t I move on?

The short answer is I can, it will just take time. That’s the answer I’m comfortable sharing with you right now. But that means working towards it. It means ubering at night and on the weekends. It means cheap meals and eating in. It means putting myself out there and not thinking everyone is out to hurt me. It means figuring out who I am.

So, to anyone asking, “why not me,” I ask you this: Why not you? How can you chase the dreams you have? How can you take one small step closer to whatever you wish to accomplish? Because I know you can do anything you set your mind to.