Lyrical Logic

Dark, cold, and silent.
That's what you would find if you walked through my heart.
It isn't fully of happy memories.
It isn't warm and bright.
You would think you were deep inside a cave.

Over there is the first time the abuse happened.
Keep going, and you'll see how it evolved. 
From little comments here and there
To part of a conversation
To complete screaming sessions. 
How did my heart survive? 

Oh, here are a few happy times. 
The first time he kissed me.
Meeting his family. 
Getting engaged. 
Oh, our wedding day. 
That one is a mix of good and bad. 
Don't get too excited, 
It's only about to get worse. 

There is the miscarriage, 
I was a hot mess. 
Did I really look like that? 
No wonder he left. 
Wait, there we lost our dog. 
Gosh I miss him so much. 
Though, 
I'm glad he wasn't here for this. 

There my boss died, 
That was brutal. 
And just a few months later
He left me. 
Watch your step,
There are a lot of cracks here. 
He broke me in so many ways, 
I don't want you to fall into the hurt that still lives here.

New job,
New friends. 
Our best friend got married. 
I got a cat, 
Oh there's the shoe. 
Lost my apartment
Thanks to a shitty friend. 
Looking for places to live. 
Looking for reasons to keep going.
But wait, 
Where is that light coming from? 

You keep going, 
Find out where the light leads. 
Then, 
Once you know, 
Come back and tell me how the journey is.
Until then,
I'll just live here, 
In this dark, cold place. 
Why? 
Because it's all I've ever known.