Lyrical Logic

Have you ever sat down, thinking one thing, and then you realize something completely different? That’s how I felt when I sat down to write today. I sat down to write, and immediately got back up to go walk my local trails around the lake.

There is something about walking through nature that always brings me peace. I’m grateful for the ability to walk these beautiful trails so close to home. It is less than a 10 minute drive from my home. I didn’t grow up walking trails, just playing outside. Softball, bike riding, running cross country. The peaceful surroundings have always helped me think.

I feel like I’ve hit a wall with my poetry collection. Taking a break from writing has been helpful, but it also has made me anxious. Part of me is just trying to figure out how to juggle everything in life right now. But, if you ask the people around me, I’m thriving. Which, in a way I am. In other ways I feel like I’m drowning.

Drowning in work, drowning in past decisions, drowning in heartache.

Things aren’t always the way they look. Things aren’t always going as well as they seem. Hell, people lie and tell you things that aren’t true. But the best thing to do is try and stay positive and just keep going. Because the best way to prove to other people that you don’t need them, is to thrive without out.

Here’s to thriving. Here’s to finishing my collection, finishing school, and so much more. Here’s to doing the things they all told me I couldn’t do.