Lyrical Logic

I’ve spent a lot of time these last 7 weeks thinking about worth. Specifically, what my worth is to the company I work for. Not to the people I work with, but the company as a whole. Because there is a stark difference between asking the company, and the leadership, to show how much they value me compared to the people I work with on a day to day basis.

The people I work with every day are great. Well, let me be clear, when some people aren’t on maternity leave so I have to deal with other people, it is great. (I’m not mad about the maternity leave, I just miss that co-worker the the people I work with because she isn’t here aren’t great.) They value me and we all care about each other and do things for each other because everyone matters. But when you ask the company, I’m worried I won’t even get a raise large enough to cover inflation. Lord knows I technically took a pay cut this year.

You don't have to tell me every day
You don't have to give me all the best things
All you have to do
Is treat me with some respect
And not ask me
To do things
You wouldn't even want to do.

There are a lot of different factors that come into play, and I get it. My company does treat us well and holds events and buys us drinks and does overall create a good work environment (everyone has a few bad eggs). And I won’t leave this job because I genuinely do love it. But some days I just wish the compensation matched what they expect of me. Or, should I say, the reality of what my position has become.