Lyrical Logic

This is a big week for me. I’m, for the first time in my adult life, moving into my first solo apartment. I’ve always had a roommate, or lived with my ex husband. So this marks a big step for me. And honestly, I’m both excited and terrified.

I think the thing I’m worried about the most is the getting myself up and out. I’m afraid my depression will take over. But, I also think it will be really good for me. I’ve never felt like a place was my home. Even when it was, it didn’t feel like I could do what I wanted. Like, I was alway walking on eggshells and trying not to piss anyone off. But I’m excited to only have to worry about not pissing off my cat.

On my own for the first time.
Trying to just get by
Maybe I'll finally find myself
And be able to answer the age old question
What makes you, you? 

It will be some chaos this week. Especially since I’ll be moving over a couple of days and there is a holiday thrown in. But I’m excited to start this next chapter of my life. While I don’t feel like celebrating our freedom, seeing as Iowa has recently stripped me of my right to make my own reproductive health care decisions, I’ll still do some fun things. At least, I’ll try to.