Lyrical Logic

I’m not a girl who does her hair and makeup. I’m not a girl who makes sure her nails are done or that she has the latest and greatest skin care routine. Frankly, I’m not even the girl that remembers to wash her face daily. It just isn’t me. And that is okay. But I’ve realized that it does make me look like I’m just exhausted all of the time. Which – to be honest – isn’t a complete lie.

I was at work the other day, and one of my coworkers asked me if I was feeling okay. When I replied I was she was like “you just look like you are utterly exhausted.” Now, to be fair, the circles around my eyes are real dark. If I’m feeling “pretty” I will take the time to do my makeup. Though, it’s not very often. But when I looked at myself in the mirror I understood why it looked like I didn’t feel well. Because I honest to goodness looked like I hadn’t slept in weeks.

Now I’m trying to figure out and stick to some sort of skin care routine. I’ve realized I don’t need to do a full face of makeup, I can just throw some concealer on under my eyes with a little bit of the tarte fake awake eyeliner (yes I was influenced) and look just fine. No, they aren’t paying me for the plug, but if they want, I could use another liner. I use the nude, not the white.

Exhaustion
It doesn't look good on me
Maybe it looks good on some
But it does something to me.
I seem to be cranky
I seem to not care.
Most of all
I tend to just stare.
But on the days where
I can bring myself to see
That just a few extra minutes
Can make all the difference
In how you see me.

I’m not chronically exhausted anymore. Though, some days I wonder if that is true. I’ve been exhausted for so long it doesn’t feel right to say I’m not tired. But even though I have always been a woman who says that you don’t need to wear make up every day, I think I’m starting to change the way I think. I don’t need to do a full face of makeup every day. But throw a little concealer under my eyes, a little bit of that fake awake, and I’ll be good to go every single day.