Lyrical Logic

Let me start by saying how incredibly crazy my life has been the last month. I traveled to see my brother and his wife and daughter – across the county. I found out my sister is expecting a child. I almost adopted another cat. Oh, and we almost went to trial on a case that should never see the light of day – but absolutely will. Have I mentioned before I’m a paralegal? Well, yeah. I am. It’s a glorious, exhausting life I lead.

Moving is hard for anyone. For some reason it has been extra hard on me. I’m two month into my solo, not living with anyone, apartment, and as my therapist puts it, I’m doing pretty damn well. Nothing in my life is on fire, and I can finally really start to focus on me and my goals in life. Which, is a little crazy to think about. I’ve spent my literal entire life not focusing on me. And I know I talk about it a lot, but it is because it is truly just a foreign concept to me.

So I booked my Greek vacation for July of 2025. I upgraded my desk, and got a docking station for my laptop, plus two new monitors to go with it. I got a new purse, the boots I’ve wanted, and I stashed away enough money to know that I’ll be okay if things get tight. Really, I’ve hit the jackpot. Well, I got the last of my divorce settlement, so it is kinda the same thing.

I've spent a lifetime
Not caring about me.
I've spent a lifetime
Doing everything you need.
Now I'll spend a lifetime
Becoming exactly who I want to be.
Travel the world
Finish school
Get a few tattoos
All of the things I couldn't do
Because I was taking care of you.

I’m working on finishing my book. It won’t be what I thought it would be, but it will still be great. Writing about healing seems to work for me, so I’m going to keep doing it. Even though it feels wrong to say I’m finally doing okay. Here’s to life, and the challenges it raises. Stay tuned for my travel adventures, because now that I’ve got my passport, the world is mine for the taking.