Lyrical Logic

I have once again been made an aunt, this time by my sister. There is nothing like seeing your niece (or nephew) for the first time. I’ve been blessed with two blood nieces, one of whom entered the world today. As I sit and write this I haven’t met her yet, but I know I will soon. It’s a crazy feeling, knowing that both of my younger siblings have now had a child, and I’m just out here living my best auntie life.

I call myself a member of the Feral Auntie Society, as I am just out here living my life. I’m not living it with anything other than my own happiness in mind. That means that sometimes it may appear as though I don’t have a logical thought in my head (like going out and drinking with friends and just getting wasted). Sometimes that means working long hours to make sure my job gets done and going home and crashing on my couch. And sometimes, just sometimes, it means spontaneous trips to go see my little girl in a different state. But now that I’ll have one super close, I’m excited for this chapter.

I plan on being a safe place. I plan on being the place she can go if she needs to take a break from her parents. I plan on being the place where she never feels judged and can just be herself. Because I’m seeing tendencies that I experienced in my own life, that aren’t great, from her parents, and I just want to make sure she grows up knowing how loved she really is. Not guessing or feeling unloved like I did.

I will always help you chase your dreams,
I will love you all your life.
Nothing in this life can stop me
From cheering you on each day.
Even in your fears
Even in your doubts
You will know just how much I love you
Because I won’t ever let you doubt
How loved you are
By me.

That little girl is already loved beyond measure. I will do everything I can to make sure nothing happens to her. I will be there when she needs me. I will be who she needs me to be. I cannot wait for play dates and sleepovers. I cannot wait for her first sporting events and her first musical and her first concert. Here’s to my baby niece, and a life full of love.