Lyrical Logic

I’ve been sick with a sinus infection. I lasted about a week before I caved and went to the doctor because I knew I had a fever and nothing was helping my symptoms. After four days of antibiotics, I can say I feel better. I’m not 100% yet, but I’m getting there. And just in time for Easter.

I don’t do much with my family to celebrate. I might go to brunch with some friends, but otherwise I was planning on treating it like any other weekend. Though, before, it was far from any other weekend for me. This used to be one of the busiest weeks of my life.

I identify as a Christian, but you will rarely find me inside a church building or at a church event. The Church as an organization has lost me because I do not align it with it. Leadership has failed time and time again to make me feel as though the Church itself cares for the people of the world. Because the core Christian message isn’t that Jesus died for those who believe this exact thing and only that exact thing. It’s that Jesus died for all people. Everyone. Not just those who look and act like you, but for everyone else too.

I’ve recently started getting invited by friends I have that are in leadership positions, who feel the same way I do about the things that trouble with me with the Church, to come back. My family has started asking that I try going back, if just for a service or two. There are times where I accept the invitation, either to shut my family up or to help a friend out in a service. But I think that my time in the Church is over.

I live my life in a way that I think most people can’t argue with. I treat others the way I want to be treated. I help out where I can or how I can. I keep to myself, mind my business, and try and use my privilege as a white woman to speak out against injustices. All are things that Jesus did in his lifetime. I drink a little more than he did, have a few more tattoos, and smoke a little weed. I curse, I have a good time. But I don’t shove my religion in your face or act like I’m holier than thou. Though, if you like some sports teams I’ll tell you I have better taste (all in good fun).

That is what I think we are missing in Christianity. I realized, as I was looking back through everything and reflecting on what will happen this week as my book publishes, that I had never talked about it. This piece of my life that used to play a massive role in it, I just haven’t talked about.

As I look around and continue to see the White Christian Nationalism filling up the United States I think it is important to clarify where I stand. Because I am a believer in Jesus Christ. I do believe that he was born of the Virgin Mary, suffered under Pontius Piolet, was crucified, died, and was buried, rising again on the Third day and then ascending into heaven. But I also believe that people should live how they want to live, so long as it doesn’t hurt anyone else.

Cancel me for this if you want. But I’m not going to tell you everything happens for a reason. I’m not going to tell you you’re going to hell (though, I’ll be joining you so it might be a fun time). I’m not going to stop talking to you because you don’t believe the exact things I do (but if you’re a MAGA republican, I can’t promise I’ll be civil). I’m not even going to with you a Merry Christmas if you don’t want me to. I just want to hang out on my little piece of the internet with you. Vibe, have a good time, maybe a few drinks. Make some memories. And just be.