Lyrical Logic

There is nothing like
Hearing that someone you love
Is getting married.
You are excited for them.
You are happy for them.
You know they deserve that kind of love.
But once you’ve been divorced,
It also hurts like hell.

Maybe it is how it ended.
Maybe it is how bad he hurt me.
But when I heard the news
I started to shake.
I don’t want to watch you
Go through what I went through.

I still break down,
I still wonder what I did wrong.
I still wish that I was back
In that toxic relationship
Because then I’d have someone.
Instead I’ve sworn off love,
Declaring I’d be alone forever.
Not because I don’t think there is someone out there,
But because my heart
Cannot risk that kind of pain
Ever again.