Poetry

  • Worth

    I’ve spent a lot of time these last 7 weeks thinking about worth. Specifically, what my worth is to the company I work for. Not to the people I work with, but the company as a whole. Because there is a stark difference between asking the company, and the leadership, to show how much they…

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  • Emptiness

    Have you ever woken up and just felt completely off? And I don’t mean like woken up and you feel sick, but just off. Emotionally, you just feel off. It’s an odd feeling, and usually, I can figure out why. But today I’m not all that sure. It is just a day where it feels…

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  • The Mom I Want to Be

    The Mom I Want to Be

    The writer describes a complex relationship with their mother, expressing admiration, disappointment, and fear. Despite the mixed feelings, they still aspire to emulate their mother’s positive qualities and strength.

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  • Anticipation

    This week I’m having a minor procedure done. It’s really nothing to worry about, though hopefully it will create a better understanding of why I feel the way I do. But in doing that, on top of a chaotic work life, it has left me with a lot of anxiety. I’m not completely sure what…

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  • My List

    There are a lot of things that I want to do in my life. That never ending bucket list if you will. But for me, this list has become more about finding myself so I can find the things that I enjoy doing. Really, it’s just that I want to be able to tell people…

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  • Keeping Up

    Keeping up is impossible these days. At least, it seems like it for me. There are only so many hours in a day and I need to remember that. I can’t get everything done every single day. Which, as a pathological people pleaser is hard to remember. I’m struggling to tell myself that it’s okay…

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  • Sad Songs

    Most of my favorite songs can be considered “sad” songs. My mom once asked me for a list of songs that I listen to that make me feel happy. Yeah, it was a list of mostly sad songs. I have always been this way. I’m not really sure why, but the sad songs really speak…

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  • Transitions

    My life seems to be constantly changing. Sometimes it is expected and it is good. But most of the time, it is sudden, chaotic, and it takes me a bit to see the good in it. My life has been in constant transition for the last year. It is absolutely insane to me that my…

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  • The Legacy

    When the University of Iowa announced Coach Lisa Bluder’s retirement, I absolutely had a moment. Coach Bluder is one of the greatest coaches, and she has been the face of Iowa Women’s Basketball for all but three years of my life. I spent weekends watching her coach talented young women in Carver Hawkeye Arena, both…

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  • To See Him Happy

    I go back and forth between hating my ex, and admitting that I still love him. It’s so hard because I know I should be pissed, and I should want nothing but the worst from him, but the opposite is true. I only want to see him happy and succeed in life. I want no…

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