Lyrical Logic

Last month I decided that I was going to embrace my inner stoner. It turns out, that meant physically, and medically, as I spent the last 10 days with a kidney stone. Don’t worry friends, I’m just habitually dehydrated. It’s been a problem my whole life. I swear, I’m trying to be better. But I just get super hyper focused that I forget to eat and drink.

By the time this posts, it will be April 21st. It will be the day after one of my favorite unofficial holidays. And I want to make sure you celebrated accordingly. I know I did. Went grocery shopping after work and then gardened to my heart’s content. Or, at least, that’s the plan. I’m writing this ahead of schedule.

Now, I am going to pause here, and let you know that we are going to be talking about sexual assault and consensual sex. So if you don’t want to continue, I understand. This is a heavy and triggering topic.

I am happily stoned this evening (pre 4:20), and I was getting ready to write this post for this week, and I started scrolling TikTok. And the first video was of a woman talking about the 62 Million Men Documentary on CNN. I hadn’t heard about it. I went and looked it up. Let me just say, this is why we choose the bear.

I was drugged and assaulted at 13. I have known for a long time that this kind of thing exists. But knowing that it exists to this extent? That is what is triggering to me. Knowing that there is no way to prosecute these predators because of the ability to hide behind the internet? Knowing that conviction rates for sexual assaults is so low and the punishment so minimal? That is what is what bothers me about that documentary. That it is this big of a god damn problem and there is essentially nothing we can do about it.

I was really excited to sit down and write tonight. And then I had a “squirrel” moment to look at TikTok and now I’m just wondering when people will start to take violence against women seriously. I’m wondering when we will start holding people accountable for the crimes they commit. Most of all, I’m wondering why people don’t see this as a problem.

This is a problem. And I don’t know how much louder we can shout about it. It needs to end.