Poetry

  • When even my therapist says “working with you is fun because I never know what you’re going to say happened this week,” you know that your life is truly pure chaos. In her defense, my life is a bit of a shit show at the moment. We have lulls and we have chaos highs, and…

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  • Moving

    This is a big week for me. I’m, for the first time in my adult life, moving into my first solo apartment. I’ve always had a roommate, or lived with my ex husband. So this marks a big step for me. And honestly, I’m both excited and terrified. I think the thing I’m worried about…

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  • Depression

    Have you ever just done something, partially on a whim, and just felt instant relief? I feel that today as I decided that going back to school right now isn’t what is best for me. As much as I want to finish my degree, my life isn’t in a place where it’s doable for me.…

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  • The Person I See

    Considering the last 20 months of my life, I’m pretty happy just to be here. But having the last week to mostly unplug outside of my life at work has kinda given me some perspective. I seem to be continuing to be who people expect me to be. Instead of being who I want to…

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  • Worth

    I’ve spent a lot of time these last 7 weeks thinking about worth. Specifically, what my worth is to the company I work for. Not to the people I work with, but the company as a whole. Because there is a stark difference between asking the company, and the leadership, to show how much they…

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  • Emptiness

    Have you ever woken up and just felt completely off? And I don’t mean like woken up and you feel sick, but just off. Emotionally, you just feel off. It’s an odd feeling, and usually, I can figure out why. But today I’m not all that sure. It is just a day where it feels…

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  • The Mom I Want to Be

    The Mom I Want to Be

    The writer describes a complex relationship with their mother, expressing admiration, disappointment, and fear. Despite the mixed feelings, they still aspire to emulate their mother’s positive qualities and strength.

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  • Anticipation

    This week I’m having a minor procedure done. It’s really nothing to worry about, though hopefully it will create a better understanding of why I feel the way I do. But in doing that, on top of a chaotic work life, it has left me with a lot of anxiety. I’m not completely sure what…

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  • My List

    There are a lot of things that I want to do in my life. That never ending bucket list if you will. But for me, this list has become more about finding myself so I can find the things that I enjoy doing. Really, it’s just that I want to be able to tell people…

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  • Keeping Up

    Keeping up is impossible these days. At least, it seems like it for me. There are only so many hours in a day and I need to remember that. I can’t get everything done every single day. Which, as a pathological people pleaser is hard to remember. I’m struggling to tell myself that it’s okay…

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