• For Dolly & Gloria

    For Dolly & Gloria

    Two weeks. It’s been two weeks since we lost Dolly. It’s been almost a week since we lost Gloria. How is this possible? And the nerve of my therapist today to do her damn job. The loss of legends has me on high alert. I never imagined losing Dolly would be this heartbreaking for me.…

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  • Those Honky Tonk Angels

    The world has been grieving. We lost an angel on earth, and it hurts. Personally, I realized how much of a mess if Reba ever dies (she’s not allowed, this is a non negotiable). While I am heartbroken, I’m so glad she got to go home to her Carl Dean. She was ready to go…

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  • Rest Easy, Aunt Dolly

    Rest Easy, Aunt Dolly

    I’m writing this the day after she died. I wanted to write it last night, but it was so overwhelming that I just couldn’t. I was sitting out on my deck at 11:00 PM ugly crying while listening to her albums. I cried this morning when I got up and realized she didn’t wake with…

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  • If You Only Knew

    If you only knew what a trauma survivor goes through.The loneliness that comes from not being able to trust anyone.The desire for a connection, but being too scared to find it.If you only knew how easy it is to go into survival mode. The immediate response that takes place. Unable to pull back from it…

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  • Burned Out, Still Kicking

    I swear, I would really, really love a week where my world wasn’t rocked by some random piece of information that shouldn’t bother me anymore, but it does. This week, my ex-husband is the reason I’ve been distracted. And I won’t get into it here, but you know what? I’m tired of it. So freaking…

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  • Dear Mama

    Hey Mama, I have been struggling for a few days. Well, okay. I’ve been struggling for about two weeks. Because, well, my mother did what she always did. She was doting in public and hugged me and told me she loved me, not that she wished me a happy birthday, and then completely ignored me…

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  • I’m Too Old for This Shit

    So, for my birthday this year, I decided I wanted to go do something. Well, okay. I needed “supplies” for writing. The fact that it was my birthday was just a happy accident. Well, I decided it would be a brilliant idea to spend the weekend TENT CAMPING. Yeah, my back is screaming at me…

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  • My Twenties

    This last month has been a little bit wild. I spent a lot of time thinking about what I was thinking about how I wanted to live this last year of my twenties. I’m starting it off strong with a hair appointment and then a new tattoo a few days later. Well, technically two. My…

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  • Dear Evan Hansen

    My local theatre is putting on Dear Evan Hansen. I’d never seen it before, but I knew the story. I was so excited to see it. I had been looking forward to it for weeks. But I had no idea how hard it would hit me at the end of the show. Before I tell…

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  • I’ve been in a bit of a slump with writing lately. It’s been a struggle to get myself out of it. If I’m being honest, I’m not out of it yet. My brain is tired by the time I get home from work and on the weekends I just want to vegetate on the couch…

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